Is It Helping Or Is It Hurting?

Have you ever "given up" on something? 

Not in a lazy, I just don't feel like it, but more of a this is hurting more than it's helping way? 

The last time I feel like I gave up on something was in 6th grade when I quit gymnastics. It's probably the one decision I still question to this day. Did I do the right thing? Was it something my coach said that was the last straw or did I let it be an excuse to quit?

This past week I quit something that I thought was helping me - until it wasn't. And oddly enough I just shared last week how I thought it was helping. 

I was on day 16 of 30 of Phase 1 of the 75Hard program and I decided to quit. 

It started Monday at my tapping session. I talked through the two feelings I had: I felt amazingly productive and proud of what I had done. But, I was also tired and fearing the all too familiar burnout that I had felt towards the end of The Hatchery. 

Kelly (tapping coach) didn't push for me to quit, but said to be mindful of where I was and to also be proud that I was catching these feelings early. 

Monday & Tuesday were great. Then, I got a call from Ellie's school Wednesday morning. There was a positive Covid case at school, so she and a handful of other kids needed to be out for 5 days. 

We made it through Wednesday afternoon just fine, but that night I just hit a wall. Everything felt forced and harder than it needed to be. As I checked off the items in my 75Hard app I asked myself: Did you really do these? Like, really do them or just go the motions. 

I woke up Thursday morning with the decision to stop. 

Usually, in this situation, I beat myself up and question myself. 

But, not this time. I knew it was needed. 

And you know what? I felt so good about the decision (thank you, tapping). I still completed most of the items and as I went to bed - instead of forcing myself to read 10 pages and visualize for 10 minutes with my eye pried open - I just crawled into bed and turned off the light. 

Sean was so confused and asked if I was going to do my normal stuff. 

Nope. I stopped. 

I explained the whole thing and his words were, “I’m super proud of you as I know that was not an easy decision.”

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Will I complete Phase 1? Yes. Will it be right now? Nope. Will I probably find another mental challenge to conquer.. Yes 😉

So, my turn to ask you. Have you ever had a situation where you realized it was hurting more than it was helping?